why do i feel so sad?
so work today was sucky.
i discovered an unanticipated side-effect of my ‘master plan’:
that is, after finishing all my work and all the stuff that i knew how to do, instead of training me to do more (which takes time and effort from someone else), the other girl (who has the same position as me) and i were kinda just asking random people if they knew of anything we could do.
and then asking our supervisor which sent her on some kind of frantic search. “DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY WORK THEY CAN DO?!!”
(you know bosses, they never want their workers to be idle.)
so we faxed some stuff…. totally wasting time.
Q: how many people does it take to send a fax?
A: two.
some guy walked by as the girl was reading out the phone number and i was punching it into the machine.
we felt like dorks… he probably thought we were dorks… it all worked out.
i guess the worst part of not having work to do is the uneasiness i feel about just sitting there and doing nothing…. so i try to act, look, and be busy.
finding random things to “organize”. (ie, rearrange)
the weather was overcast for most of the day so i think that added to the feeling of it being a loooooooong day.
it felt like friday.
and then you realize it’s only tuesday.
heh, it wasn’t just me who thought it was friday today either! one of my coworkers did too! and some random person waiting for the elevator with me! haha… those conversations are the best.
i should write them here.
speaking of elevator fun, here’s what happened this morning:
first of all, i should note that i don’t have a security pass/i.d yet, so i really can’t actually get into the office, i can only get into the building and up the elevator to the floor, and then you need a special ‘electronic card’ to get through the doors into the office.
well, the girl i’m working with started 3 days before me, so she already has a pass.
we took the same bus in the morning today which was exciting for me b/c it meant that i would be able to get into the office with no problem!
haha, was i wrong or what?!
turns out, before 8:15 the elevator won’t stop on the floors of our office unless you have a special ‘barcode’ card (to scan inside the elevator)
and since neither of us had that card and no one in the elevator had it either, we rode up to the top floor and then back down to the ground floor.
then we got off and I decided that we should just use the stairs.
which proved to be harder than i thought it would be, b/c we couldn’t find the silly stairs!
i dunno where they are! probably hidden behind a door that you need a special card to open!
well, after searching but not finding, we went back to the elevators and asked some random guy if he could let us off on the floor we needed.
turns out he works for the same company as us, but doesn’t have one of those silly cards either!
so we all wait for a few minutes and then see the ‘boss guy’ of our section come by.
and he was able to get us to the floor we needed.
it was a little funny and half ridiculous.
in other news, i had a kick in the ego today!
by some random turn of events i had a mini conversation with an acquaintance from back in the day who i see every so often these days.
well, he helps out at the drop-in that i’ve mentioned before.
so, turns out that while i knew what uni he was going to, what program/area of study he was in, and when he started and graduated, he knew none of those things about me…. or even the fact that i attended post-secondary school!
now, i don’t consider myself one of those people who know a lot (or care to know a lot) about people who don’t know me. like really, i don’t really care too much about ppl from highschool who i didn’t really talk to, or people from back then who i dont keep in touch with anymore.
(as i’ve been known to say, i hate acquaintances. i think they’re basically useless and a big waste of time. lol.)
anyways, i just lost my train of thought. basically what i wanted to state was that i was shocked and appalled (and kicked in the gut) when i realized that this person had absolutely NO idea what i’d been up to over the last 4 years.
oh, and just to clarify, i don’t actually feel particularly sad today… it’s just that, that song (by Alicia Keys) was the only thing in my head that i felt would suit this downer of an entry. 
